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| ahhhhhh im soo BLAH right now. its 1:01 and i took a nap today so now i cant sleep. my nintendo is broken and the person i wanted to talk to on the phone tonight, didnt pick up. i left a message and didn't get a call back. i think hes talkin to this other person and now my plan is ruined. its too late now....geesh if only i could explain. i wanna cry so bad but i have no strength to even form tears. its retarded if u ask me. ummm i don't know what to do.. i try so hard to be happy, to look foward to things but everything goes right down the drain. i feel just like a body walking around...theres nothing in me anymore. the only emotion i feel is sadness...and sometimes i just wanna lay down and close my eyes and never open them again...its not fair. fuck.
he was strumming my pain with his fingers. he was singing my life with his words. he was killing me softly with his song. killing me softly with his song....
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| it's funny how a few months ago i wanted to be in love soo bad. how i just wanted to have that special person there for me all the time. i didnt even think about the consequences of what would happen, and i should have. it would have saved me a whole lot of heartbreak and confusion. so yeah. im talking to that person again....and things seem okay but then im not sure. im not sure if i should really get all into this..put my all in it cuz hes the only person i want. or if i should just back out and not get my heartbroken again. like i know he has feelings for other people...and im glad he's honest. but its just like i've been trying so hard to get over him and nothing works...i ruined friendships because of it..and its just blah. i dont know what to do anymore. i was talking to audge and she gave me good advice. but its like when finally hes the thought in the back of my head my phone rings and its him.i feel so dumb that im still stuck on him..like everyones always like he's moved on and you should too...but they dont even know the half of what i feel for this kid. if they only felt what i felt they would know how fucking hard it is. i also hate when people tell me im not in love....when they've never been in love so they have no idea what its like. they say im too young. i dont think you can ever be too young. yeah so maybe ill try being happy with the situation im in...but i dont wanna get my hopes up..i dunno ill just stay neutral. see what happens
alright later </3 
need you like water in my lungs.
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